Dating, marriage & poop

Dating, marriage, the deal

I guess I've dated my bf the longest ever. Being married miserably for over 7 years doesn't count. My previous married because I got pregnant and thought it was the right thing to do. Yea....it sooo wasn't!
Now that the impossibility of me getting hitched has actually become a possibility and came true, I eat my dramatic self pity in raw uncooked rough form. And yes, I'm thrilled! I was never one to believe in divorce or separation. Luckily I was quickly freed from that hell the first time. I seriously cannot handle infidelity.

People started asking how I didn't have a big wedding, not even a party, and if being married feels different. I, personally don't think things should change. After being with Justin for almost 5 years, I'm hoping things are going to go as smoothly as it has been the last few months. I'm sure it's strange in the beginning for him to refer to me as his wife as it was calling him my husband. It's awesome actually!
I don't see spending thousands of dollars on a grand wedding when people show just to compliment your dress and the decor as they drink the RSVP'd main courses and elaborately priced cake, washing it down with the open bar. A lot of girls relish in the spotlight, whereas Justin & I both agree we like it toned down. Courthouse style. That's A-ok! We will eventually spend a few bucks on "wedding pics".

Marriage. People say people or couples or things change. You see, Justin & I have already went ahead and did the live together thing. I don't see why things should change. He still comes home every night, has his same routine, same job, same everything as do I. Getting married to me, meant a lot. It's not just a piece of paper. It's the vows. As much as we might sometimes hate eachother enough to want to suffocate in sleep with a nice fluffy pillow. We both know only we can tolerate eachother's faults and habits. I love the asshole. And he loves his bitch. Yep. I'm no innocent angel.

Things are the way the should be. Aggravating, stressful, highly sexual, hateful, selfish, smelly at times but all with love.